so.....

well, this blog may be discontinued, but i may post a few things every once in a while. i may even give it to a poor little fellow who does not have a blog or even an aim account. scary, i know. anyways, you can access my new blog at http://x-emo-kid-x.blogspot.com. if i do give this to the poor little fellow, then i will have this as a link in the "better places to go..." section of this blog. thatnk you, and have a nice day. beep.

Pedro......................

pedro cheated on me...he went out with some chick who kissed him at school...i hate him now...but yet i still love him...what am i going to do???...i could go to his house some day and kiss him...but that would make him mad....i could die...but that would make him terribly sad...pedro, if you're reading this, know that i still love you....

Venom

this is just to tell Venom, my friend, not to die. i will not die if he promises not to die. i do not want anyone dead, but if he wishes to die still, we will have to die together. i will have to bring Pedro, and you can bring Shaina. Goodbye Forever.

My Will

This is my will. It is very simple...

Everything I own goes to Pedro Antonio Cordova Munez Dias. Everything he does not wish to keep will go to any of my friends who will want it. My green shirt that I got in Provincetown goes to Althea Bock-Hughes. Goodbye.....

hey i'm suicidal again.

hi. i met a new friend on Runescape his name is Mr Peanut59, just so you know. his real name is hard to remember, as it is cheklovakskian for wolf, so his nick name is venom. he says he has no reason to live and he wants to die. then he was cutting open his hand and crying and drinking the blood that poured out. i was able to convince him otherwise, but now i am not so sure. i think i want to die again, too. i say again because in fourth grade, i wanted to die very badly.now, again, i wish to die. i want to die with him. i am so sorry to everyone who cares about me. goodbye.

Blue Carolina---Alkaline Trio

it's everything that i can do right now
to not think about you moving further off with every passing second
every night of this lonely summertime
i feel you missing from my heart, a part was kidnapped from my soul

well i can hardly wait...
until i get the sun in your lips both pressing on my skin
well i can hardly wait...
until i feel the thrill in my heart that starts inside your eyes
and the song in my head that burns so good on my tongue
yes i will... you... you... yes i will

the night is aging as the sun warms your face
won't you turn around and stay for good, the air is getting much too cold
i am nervous and anxious, it really counts this time
and you know all my favorite singers have have stolen all of my best lines

well i can hardly wait...
until i get the sun in your lips both pressing on my skin
well i can hardly wait...
until i feel that thrill in my heart that starts inside my eyes
and a song in my head that burns so good on my tongue
yes, i will... you... you... yes, i will

some day i'll burn this bed, only two feet wide, but where i'll hide...
for the next seventeen days...i will ask myself "how badly do i want this?"
i really want this

well i can hardly wait...
until i get the sun in your lips both pressing on my skin
well i can hardly wait...
until i fell the thrill in my heart that starts inside my eyes
and the song in my head that burns so good on my tongue
yes, i will... you... you.... yes, i will
you... you...yes, i will...

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